You know what hurts the most ?
Reminiscing how we were from the beginning, how it all changed and how we got to this point. Isn’t it funny how we were two people that were so sprung for each other, we were full of many smiles, laughs and butterflies. Then all of a sudden everything changed, and we reached this point where we can’t even last a day without fighting and arguing, we can’t even have a decent phone call without one of us hanging up. So one question, when did our smiles, laughs and butterflies turn into fights, arguments and hatred for one another?
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10 years agoAt the end of the day.
You’re really all i think about. Its not because you let me do my thing, its because i genuinely care for you. I hope you read this. Cause i want to assure you that i love and care for you.
(Source: jaydemm)
11 years agoInfatuation.
When i’m infatuated with someone… i’m like really infatuated with them. Its been a cool ass min since i had my heart beating and being all nervous and shit again. Well see.
(Source: jaydemm)
11 years agoI told a girl..
i had a phone call one night a few months ago.. reminisce about the past of what could’ve been and what should’ve been. Funny thing is, i woke up the next day happy. After that day she has no where to be seen. How do you share some happy moments then disappear? I understand you’re the type that doesn’t keep her friends around well but still.. i told her i wouldn’t mind seeing her in the future, but yet nothing happened. I guess it happens for a reason.
(Source: jaydemm)
11 years ago11 years agolets get things straight. i am not anyones backup plan. i am not anyones plan B. i am not someone to take advantage of & i dnt tolerate being brushed off to the side. i cnt pretend anymore. when things arent alright, i cnt sit with a smile on my face & say they are. im tired, im fucking tired. of…
I once told a girl i loved her and gave her all of me… now look where i am… alone. Damn it sucks when you look in the past and analyze everything.
(Source: jaydemm)
11 years ago“Nice Guys Finish Last”
I always use to consider myself as a nice guy. I’ve never been an asshole to anyone or anything.. But in the past few months i’ve been changing.. turning into that typical guy/asshole.. its sad to say that half of me is not being a nice guy anymore. Its like the process of me turning to a full asshole or something. I honestly blame all the girls these past few years that fucked me over. I was hella of a nice guy with morals and shit. Now my mind set is all “Fuck it, i’m single. I’m just tryna have fun” And anyone that knows me knows thats not who i am… ohhh lawd.. Whatever, lets just focus on myself and no girls and no relationships. It worked for me before so lets do that again. Fuck the world.
(Source: jaydemm)
11 years ago“Typical Guy”
Its sad to say but i’ve become that typical guy… i do what every guy usually does. I mean i still have my manners and respect and everything. But if i’m given the chance then i’m down like charlie brown. Its what happens when you’ve been single for 2 years, get played by how many girls and just tired of relationships. I just wanna have fun, be single, and if down the road some lady comes then why not. I’ll enjoy her company and maybe something will happen. But as of right now… I’m that typical single asshole guy…
(Source: jaydemm)
11 years agoJanky ass few days…
I’ve been feeling really down the past few days and i’m not sure what it is. I told my lead during work that i was feeling kinda blehh and she told me to go watch the snow fall after the fireworks. So i did, the whole time christmas music was playing, families and couples were holding each other and kissing. It made me miss having someone around the holiday times. I’m the type of guy who likes to spoil the person i’m with and for the past 2 year i haven’t been able to do that. I mean i’m not complaining cause i spoil myself all the time. But theres just that feeling were your doing it for another person and you see that smile on their face.. iunno man, i know i don’t wanna be with someone right now, but i miss it. Maybe i’m just waiting on that someone who would sweep me off my feel when i’m not paying attention. Hummmp. Oh well.
(Source: jaydemm)
11 years agoLDR
I don’t mind that shit. As long as the person is down for me and i trust her. I don’t need that everyday physical attention. Yes it would be nice, but because i’m looking something more, means i’m lookng for something worth working for even if its a LDR. You fuck up once tho, then i’m automatically gone. Its a 50/50 relationship since their so far. But if they put the work and stay truthful then you never know whats going to happen.
(Source: jaydemm)
11 years agoToo young for marriage, too old for games.
11 years agoNo more games, just be real with me. I’m too grown to be playing these petty games. If you want me, prove it.